So upset and let down...

Sorry I'm just having a rant here but I am so angry. My Dad is a farmer and my whole life the farm has been put before me. I am a singer and as a child every concert I did he wasnt there, every parents evening he wasnt there. I am used to it now and we dont have a father-daughter relationship at all. However I am graduating from uni and my ceremony is on 1st Nov. I am so proud of myself for achieving a 1st class hours degree and achieving my dream job especially as I went back to education as a mature student with a young child and I had conquered severe depression, a marriage breakdown and had 2 failed suicide attempts in 2006 and also during my training I lost 5 stone! Anyway I had hoped that just this once my Dad would be there to be proud of me have photos in my cap and gown and all that... anyway he cant come cos he is running the farm by himself that week as my uncle is away!! I know it cant be helped and I should be used to this but I am heartbroken and have spent most of today in tears . I feel so let down and disappointed that I will always look back at the photos and see that familiar gap.....

I just feel crappy today and I'm letting things get to me. My cleavage has been really sore today and I have had first aid training all afternoon where I was made to feel completely humiliated as I couldnt do the resusication due to being in the early recovery period from my BA and they made me explain what I had had done. I felt so embarressed as I hadnt wanted to share this information and I could see the filthy looks and then they said "well you had better still fit in the size 8 uniform we have ordered for you!" Luckily it does still fit but I felt awful. The dent in my left breast is still there and that is bothering me again although I did have a lovely email from my surgeon in response to sme photos that I sent to her explaining the problem. She said that she can see the problem but that its early days yet and my tissue and skin needs time to redrape itself following the uplift and to wait until 12 weeks but if there are any problems I will have a corrective procedure free of charge so at least I have that in writing now!!

Sorry for the rant but its been a bad day...

thats horrible how they spoke to you :( its very personal and people like that don understand why we get our boobs for,they assume its vanity but its not at all most the time,we g through lots of emotions they shouldnt judge you,they seem like totale idiots who u work with! in my early days of my ba i went through stages of feeling down a lot,it hink its to do with the antibiotics and having to not over do it in the first 2 weeks and its hard to get back to normal so your bound to feel moody!





weldone ont your firstclass honours degree and raising a child i think women like you are amazing!! your avi is seriously hot too xxxxxxxx sending hugs to you ,i hope you feel better soon xx

Hun I'm so sorry about your dad. Have you told him truthfully how its made you feel? It's a MASSIVE achievement passing that course - I struggled so much and it really was an emotional rollercoaster. So being a full time mummy & all your other goings on as well you should be totally proud of yourself for passing & the 1st class honours is a HUGE added acomplishment! I'm sorry your having a pants day - completely feel for you with the reaction on your course hun. Rise above it. Big hugs. Wine, chocolates, cuddles are needed. Hope you feel better soon xox

Hi hunny, sorry to hear you're having a bad day sending xx

I can totally relate to the dad situation. He had me and my sister but is not at All affectionate, loving or would ever be there for me emotionally or go to a school play or even birthday party for me or my children. Hes never even held any of my children or hugged them for a matter of fact...he's not hands on at all!! He loves me in his own way of providing me and buys me things but sometimes I wish he could be there for me in the way I've always wanted but it will never happen so I accept that and he will never change. However Ive gained a father in law who is wonderful and always there for when I need him.

Sometimes it's hard to accept but I look at it as they will be the ones missing out and I'm hoping he's proudlf his daughter for achieving so much in your life and overcoming so much.

As for work I know it's easier said than done but try and take it on the chin and rise above it, people who usually make silly comments are insecure with themselves and perhaps a little jealous. It shows their insecurity with it all, after all I'm sure if any of them had the opportunity they would! It's made the world of diffrence to you and made you happy and that's ALL that matters, not anyone's silly opinions! Trust me I overheard a few of the mums at the school talk aboout me and I look 'ridiculous' with the size chest on my tiny body but I look at it as I wanted this , I like it, and I've done it for me and I'm happy! So to anyone's opinion which actually is only a very minority few that wants to make silly comments I don't care... It's something that makes me happy and you ARE NOT BRINGING ME DOWN!,

Hope you feel better soon xxx

Story to hear you're going through this Hun! Sending hugs your way! Xx

Thanks everyone. Normally the attitude at work wouldnt have bothered me, its only an agency that I'm doing temp work for so its not like these people are women I will be working closely with but I was feeling raw from the issue with my Dad. Had a chinese for tea and bought some yummy chocs to cheer me up!!

So very sorry to read you've had such a bad day babe

I think your colleagues acted really unprofessionally babe, they should have had far more respect for your privacy and really should have known better.

As for your dad, I'm so sorry you're so upset hun. Hopefully your dad will change his mind before the big day and well done on your achievement sweetie

Aw so sorry you are feeling like this today hopefully as you have given your dad enough notice he will be able to sort something out. You should be very proud of yourself babe you have achieved a lot xx

Sorry to hear you're feeling low today

It was SO very wrong of your work to out you in that position, I feel for you it came of been nice. Also I hope something gets sorted with your dad.

You should be SO PROUD of yourself and all of YOUR achievements, you have done so much with your life already, and should be someone to look up too!!

Thank you all so much.. it really helps to hear your kind words... chocolate helps too!!!

congratulations on the degree hun, an amazing achievement. I'm sure your dad is immensely on proud of you but being a mans man farmer grrrrr he doesn't wear his heart on his sleeve, maybe if you said it would mean the world if he could come to this once in a lifetime opportunity he could re-consider.

I've spoke to my mum about it all and she is just as gutted..... I think she is fed up of feeling like a single parent all the time as she basically brought us up on her own. Both her and I know that its a no go area... it wont matter what I say.... cows have to be milked etc and he is the only one there to do it....

Congratulations on achieving your Degree 5stone xx you are a strong woman and I admire you so much x x

i have nothing to add bt xxxxxxxx

Congtats on the first class degree wowowowow what a huge achievement you should be very very proud of yourself.

I am so sad your dad cant attend the ceremony. i do hope that he will be able to find some way to get cover so he can get there for you. But remember you did this for YOU. You should be incredibly proud and I am sure that even if he doesnt make it he will be thinking about you on the day. I am sure deep down he is very proud of you. Your mum sounds very supportive - as all mums are so at least she will be there for you on the day.

I am about the same po as you. So its nice to sort of compare how you are feeling as i also have had a low week. Sometimes I look at my boobies and love them and other days they seem not right and I wonder if they will ever look the same! But I can genuinely see the change in them from when the bandages were taken off and I cant wait for them to soften and hopefully drop and fluff!!

Anyway congrats again and I hope you start to feel a bit better soon - Oh and wine helps as well as chocolate lol xx

Thank you everyone. I feel much more positive today. I'm going to enjoy my moment with my mum and my fiancee and my close friends who have all supported me through everything I have been through and everything I have achieved.

Atta girl 5stonedown! you deserve to enjoy every moment babe. Glad you're feeling better about it. Xx