feeling disconnected.......

i wasnt really sure where to post this topic, but here it is anyway lol.

some of you will know that im currently going down the NHS route for a BA due to the fact that i have soooooooooooooooo little breast tissue (to give you an idea underbust i measure 31 1/2'', and over i measure 32''..........) anyway while nothings set in stone, im not garanteed to get this, i cant help but feeling quite strange about my boobs. obviously i far from like them, and have hated them for a long time, but since going to my GP and her reffering me i cant help feeling really disconnected from my boobs, almost like they dont belong to me-before i would look at them in the mirror, scrutinising them, and hoping that they seemed a little bigger (lmao!), but now i kind of sweep it from my mind, i dont know if its the fact that i know whatever happens im not going to have these fro the rest of my life (if NHS isnt successful, in about 5years i will go private)
i was just wondering if any of you felt this way when you had decided to have a BA?

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I can't say I did with my first BA, I don't think I had time really to think about it as I made the decision to have my BA and a couple of weeks later - new boobs! Job done! LOL

My re-op however was a different story, I 'hated' how my boobs were making me feel and although I kinda resented my boobs for putting me through what at the time felt
like hell because of the complications I also I felt robbed in a strange way that they were being taken away from me, so I locked myself away so no-one could see, never touched or looked at my boobs and basically said goodbye to them if that makes sense, by the time my surgery date came, I was sort of on auto pilot, just going through the motions, no excitement, no nerves, nothing... sad now when I look back, but it all ended well in the end. xx

I did this too but for many years before my BA. I despised them so much I took a conscious decision to ignore them. I didnt even try and make them look better in padded/push up bras because I knew it was a lie (crank I know!) I simply shoved them in stretchy cotton crop tops which I even slept in . In a way I was protecting myself as they made me so unhappy but also I think thats why it took me so long to get used to having a 'bust' and finally looking 'normal' after my BA because Id as you said 'disconnected from them for so long.
Whoa deep stuff for a sunday afternoon!

xx

Aw PP, I think I know how ya feel. Up untill 1 year ago, maybe more, I was quite happy with my boobs, but then shrinkage set in big time from having 2 kids, since then I hate them, I feel they have let me down, they have given up hope of being boobs and are now just empty pockets of skin. All the other mothers I know dont look as tho there boobs have suffered from pregnancy so why have mine??
I hate the fact I will have to pay alot of money to 'sort them out' but ive got no choice really, I dont want them to look like this for the rest of my life thats for sure!!
I find myself looking at pics of Kelly Brooke, Lucy Pinder (not in a pervy man way) and thinking 'gggrrr u lucky biatchs!! why cant I have a pair like them!!' xx

hi ladies, ive felt disconnected from my boobs before i even had my 2 kids, and after i had my kids i felt worse about them.. ive always felt that i had the wrong ones so to speak and that they never looked right on me. i got used to wearing padded bras that i would put extra padding and chicken fillets in to make them look better, they never did though.. but just lately now that i know that in less than a month im having new boobs, i dont seem to care as much, the paddings gone and the chicken fillets have been binned. i think my self confidence is growing too, and to be honest i feel a like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders its hard to explain, but i dont feel jealous when i see a nice pair anymore lol

yep i hated my boobs for being so tiny and mu mum being a big dd couldnt undstand why i didnt have big boobs like her hated busty women got jealous all thats changed now and im more than hapy with them xxx