2 days to go-eeeeekkkk!!!! :)

Well it's finally so close....to be precise 2 SLEEPS!!! Lots of things been going of in my personal life, complications with the ex, my mam suffering more than usual with her mental health issues, my parents marriage under extreme strain, my mother in law still struggling to come to terms with the loss of her husband in the new year and adjusting to life alone, relying heavily on us as her crutch, teary when a light bulb needs changing (I have great sympathy for her, but her children, including my OH, are finding it difficult to cope with  her "needy" behaviour...that sounds harsh, but she's almost an hour away, her children juggle very intensive job and calls in the middle of the night worrying about the tap dripping or the lawn needingmowing are Taking their toll on their patients and making it hard for them to put their for their father to one side)

 so all this has made me think less about my ba, but now it's so close I feel a little overwhelmed by it. Obviously I'm not doubting that I want it done, it just seems to have crept up and taken me by surprise, and typically of my luck my Mr has woken with a cough and the start of a cold, and I've got water trapped in my ear from swimming which is bloody painful, and my usually amazingly laid back baby has been waking in the night for the past few nights with seemingly no reason....making me worry about how my parents will cope having her sleep for 2 nights.....and breathe!!!!! 

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Aww it sounds like you have a lot to think about but you've wanted this for soooo long it's time to focus on yourself and your new boobies!!

You should start your own diary in that section to write down everything your feeling so you can look back on it :) that's what in doing!! Excited for you though :D xx

Hi Hunni, you have got a lot to cope with and deal with. 
It's now your turn to do something for you. You will have those beautiful boobies before you know it....... And it will all be worth it.... Xxxhugsxxx

Thank you, you're right, need to just focus the next few days on me, the less I stress the better condition I will be in for the op.....2 days until I have me some boobies!! And not just any old boobies but magically growing implant s (expandable implants) so I get to experience  not only new boobs but them changing and growing...kind of like a 10years too late pubity! (Since my real boobies never grew to much...) 
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aw you sound like you have as much as me going on in your life and of late ive had to push most my worries to the side the only one that we keep to the top is Ellies health problems and all her up coming hospital appointments

I think that if you can you should think about yourself at the moment cause all of these stresses wont help your recovery

I want expandable boobies lol xx

They sound amazing don't they?! Just got to bare in mind they will eventually be much bigger than when I wake up  after the op, although ANYTHING is an improvement on the little nothings I have now, so a b cup will feel massive to me!!! Haha xx

You certainly have got a lot on your plate! You sound like me I don't do things by halves lol! And I must say I cant wait to follow your journey with the expandable boobs! Jen's right you should start a diary as I bet there will be loads of other girls interested in the expandables! x

Yerr it will be great to follow your boobies grow lol and I don't think any one else here has had them yet so im sure you may help out other ladies in the future :) xx

Life can be hard sometimes babe, but it will have its ups and well as its downs, but with everything you have got going on right now, I think you need to prioritise... Right now, you're number one. You need to have this surgery and get yourself well and strong before focusing on other things going on around you sweetheart, so just for a little while, shut the door on everyone else. Explain to them just just for this short while you have to just focus on you, its nothing personal, but you have your own problems to deal with and you need to sort those out first.

Trust me, I know how hard it is to say no to people who need you, but there's only so much of you that can go around and right now, you're all wrapped in you and your own little family.

If they don't like, that's tough on them babe. But people have to understand they're not the only ones with problems and like everyone else, sometimes you just have to sit down and see what you can do for yourself to make things right for you. Xx

Thanks cookie! It is hard to say no  sometimes.

 but on a positive note, my Mr came home early cos I felt run down, I turned my fone off and he sent me up to bed and took care of the kids and just let me sleep (since the baby had us awake for the last week during the night) and I just slept and slept and slept for 2hours and I've woke up feeling FANTASTIC! :) much happier, feel miles better WAHOOOOO just what the doctor ordered. The next few weeks is all about me and my family end of, I can't sort my parents marriage, my mum's manic depression, I can't take my mother in laws pain away...and I've got to accept that 

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Awww, what a lovely OH you have x Just worry about you and your family, everyone will cope just fine x