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Pips to come out 26th April. Ruptured, and decided to leave the silicone filled lymph nodes where they are. Surgeon has advised that it is dependant on how much damage there is when I am in surgery if he can replace at the time of pip removal. Have made a plan as to what I can have , if he can replace, but am scared. I have 315 pips...Im having allergan natrelle unders, that come in 295 or 325 .... he says 325 may be too big for my chest and cause rippling, and 295 is smaller so i may have excess skin from my 315 pips, and therefore have sagging. If theres too much damage, I will wake with no implants and have to go for re-plantation in 2 months after recovery of removal of my pips. . and Still have the rippling/sagging dialema! I am just praying now for the best outcome possible...what ever that is (at least to wake with something, it seems!!!) He advised me to go for anatomicals, but Ive opted for rounds as thats what I have been used to for 3 years, and hes told me I have no breast tissue of my own. Im worried if I go teardrop, Ill lose more volume...but also worried that Ive gone against his advise! Ive been so happy for a couple of years, after waiting for ten years ...cant belive that I am having to compromise. i do hope i wake up on 26 th , and all the worry subsides with boobies I am content with! Guilt overtakes me sometimes..Why did I start all this? Was I that bad pre-aug to justify all of this expense and worry?!

Guilt overtakes me sometimes..Why did I start all this? Was I that bad pre-aug to justify all of this expense and worry?!

Sweetheart, take those thoughts away, you have nothing to be feeling guilty about, you entrusted your body to a clinic/surgeon and they abused that trust implanting inferior breast implants into your breasts and deserting you in your time of need!

The guilt lies ONLY with these surgeons and clinics babe, they arae the ONLY ones that have to justify the decision to go on using these implants when it was increasingly becoming clear there was a problem with them.

I wish you all the luck in the world for your surgey hun - Stay positive! I'm sure your surgeon will do their very best for you on the day sweetness...

Come and add your surgery date to the calender entries forum sweetie, get your ticker on your signature, start looking ahead hunni, the sooner those PIPs are out the better and this babe is a GOOD thing! All the worry you've carried will be taken away on that day gorgeous, You're gonna be OK xx

So sorry you're having to go through this Tamz

Like cookie has just said don't ever feel guilty hun, the clinic/surgeon are the ones that should be feeling guilty,not you.

I want to wish you lots of luck for the 26th hun, stick around on the forum and keep in touch. xxx

Hi Tamz
If its any consolation to you I went through the 'guilty' feelings too. I felt guilty for the financial pressure and worry on my family when it was established i needed a re-op, but I agree with what cookie said regarding where the guilt lies and who with. All us pip girls have been put in a very unfortunate situation through no fault of our own.
I had a confirmed rupture in lefty at only 18 months, maybe it was leaking before I even noticed. It took me a further 18 months to save for the cost of my re-op...needless to say I thought the implant would be in a right mess, especially because a scan had revealed 3 lymph nodes were full of silicone. I dreaded that I might have further complications but in actual fact my surgeon who performed the re-op said it really wasnt too bad and went straight forward!
The relief you will feel when those pips are gone is great...good luck...x

Thank you so much girls. I just cant shake off the guilt and the effect all this has had on my family. I didnt have my daughter when I have my first augmentation- shes only 2 and needs me . im dreading being unable to care for her while I have my surgery. . and my 12 year old boy , although very helpful still needs mummy!! Cant wait for the 27th when it is over and I am home. Praying for a good result this time round. Thank you for all your lovely messages. Hoping Ill be as pleased as you, sharon xx Going to try and get my ticker to count down... xxxx

Your children are going to be just fine sweetheart I'm sure you're all prepared and have help sorted with your little one and I'm sure you'll find your own way around being close with your children without hurting your new boobs. Being sat on your sofa with your arms around your 2 year old next to you isn't going to hurt you sweetness and I'm I'm sure your 12 year old will be very understanding of what's going on and will be a big help to you, my daughter wasn't much older than your son when I had my first op and she was great.

You're gonna be just fine lovely, I know how hard it is and I think it's even scarier when you are having a re-op due to complications for fear of things happening again - I know, I've stood in those very shoes hun, but trust me... all will be fine, your kids will be fine and you're gonna enjoy your new boobs for a long time to come. xx

Thank you Cookie. What a lovely message. Just the kind of encouraging words I need to hear right now. Thank you so much. Will keep my posts up to date and hope to have some good news soon! xx I notice you had smaller implants after a rupture....did you get any sagging? your pic certainly doesnt look like it. xx

Oh Tamz, I'm sorry your having to go through all this. You have been put through the ringer and you should be happy with no guilt. Remember, everyone in the family is happy when mom is happy.
Good luck with everything.
Hugs

Thank you POTCHIE123. so true, everyones happy when mum is...im trying.! xx