Did you ever consider backing out?

Putting yourself forward for elective surgery is such a huge deal and something we should all take very seriously. We're made aware of the risks of surgery, face a hefty price tag and yet so many of us come out the other end entirely thrilled to have found the courage to go through with a BA!


From the moment I made up my mind entirely to the moment I had my boobs there was no stopping me, but prior to that I'd spent years researching into it, dipping my toes in the idea and usually decided to just spend money on more gel bras, haircuts, new clothes....Anything to give me an instant good feeling which obviously would never last. I don't think it was the idea of surgery that put me off, more struggling to save and the embarrassment of having the dreaded "I need a boob-job conversation" with my Mum.

So my question is, was there ever a point where you considered backing out when the nerves became too much? This question also applies to the lovely pre-BA ladies who want to share their nerve tingling experiences!x

In a word Alice, never ! I wanted boobies ever since I was 14 because mine never really grew (Apart from pregnancy and breastfeeding) Would nt ever want to go back xx

2nd time lucky wrote:In a word Alice, never ! I wanted boobies ever since I was 14 because mine never really grew (Apart from pregnancy and breastfeeding) Would nt ever want to go back xx

Looking back I can't believe I put up with mine for so long, but then I realise now how little I looked in the mirror when I was naked ... (after getting out of the bath etc, I'm not a naturist lol) x

I get that totally Alice. I never looked at my naked boobs but by God I have made up for it since x

The week before my BA was the most nerve racking and I contemplated backing out, and then when on the operating table, I considered running from the building (my fight or flight response) but I decided to close my eyes and hope for the best. Glad I didn't run out, 1 cause I got fab boobs and 2 no one would have wanted to see my butt in paper knickers and a backless hospital gown, running out the clinic. There was actually a no show on the day of my BA, she should have been first, but I took her place, they kept a spot for her all day and she never showed.

Misf1, picturing you running in your gown and paper knickers through the streets xx

Hahaa misf!!! That would have been quite a sight!

Poor girl, I wonder if she ever went back! I think I was just too desperate to get boobs, I was well and truely ready to take any pain and as it was my first op I had no idea what to expect... It was fine though!x

Alice I can relate to everything you said. I thought about it for years and it just seemed impossible. One day my bf said he didn't understand why I wore a bra as "I didn't need one" and even though at the time I felt like I'd been hit by a train, it was nothing I hadn't already thought myself and I just new I had to do it, and after that I was a woman posessed.
The hardest thing was telling my mam, I'd never ever adressed my insecurities to anyone and even talking about boobs made me feel embarrassed and made me want to curl up and die. But she was absolutely amazing and is helping me pay for it (love you mam)
That was it, that week I booked my consultation, that night booked my op! (very hasty, not recommended!) and had my op 6 weeks later.

I could have easily done a runner on the op table but I knew deep down I'd regret it for the rest of my life. I'm still don't know where I got the courage from!

When I had my first BA, it never once occurred to me to cancel, I had the regular pre-op jitters with all the fear about the GA and size, but not once did I consider cancelling. I could afford it, I was prepared for it and nothing was going to get in the way of my getting my new boobs.

My second BA, due to me suffering a rupture came as shock, although I was told of the possibilities of complications, I never really took it seriously because the excitement of having a BA just seemed to hush out any complications that might occur. I was naive and far too eager to actually 'listen'

When I found myself skint and in the position where I had to find 4K to repair the damage the rupture had caused, I don't think I've ever felt so guilty in my entire life... My elective surgery had then put not just me, but my precious family under great pressure to find the money at short notice as the implant had to come out!

I can't even begin to tell you how many tears I cried at that time. We'd saved so hard to send our son to uni and he had the money banked to pay for his education, this was the only money we had and to have to sit my son down and to explain my predicament to my son so that I could borrow the money back from him was one of the most difficult times of my life... that night, I did consider just going through the NHS and simply having them removed. It was my husband, son and daughter who talked me around ad gave me strength to continue. I knew I'd be able to pay back my son and its all been payed up now and he got his degree, but even now, the thought of doing that still makes me feel so ashamed.

But it's done now, I don't regret going ahead now, but I could have easily walked away had it not been for my family.....and BJSF.

I will NEVER put myself or my family through anything like that ever again... I now have a boobie fund set up, just for my emergency boob job. xx

Aw Cookie xxxx

aww just got to love ya Cookie x

Pussycat and Cookie it sounds like you are both blessed to have an incredibly supportive family!

I can say if I were in your sons position I would happily give what I could for my Mum's health and happiness. Mothers (some atleast) give so much to their children... It's only fair it come's back around when they need us!

Without getting too off topic, how long had you had your initial implants Cookie? Were they pips or just an unfortunate rupture?x

altw wrote:Without getting too off topic, how long had you had your initial implants Cookie?

Just under 3 years. I was still within my aftercare plan when I had a rupture, but my aftercare wouldn't pay for the further surgery involved to pay for the damage done to my breast, they were only obliged to pay for the free surgery to replace the ruptured implant, leaving me to find the rest of the money to pay for something that was caused through no fault of my own.

Were they pips or just an unfortunate rupture?x

I didn't have PIPs Altw... I was just one of the unlucky ones sadly. xx

cookie wrote:

altw wrote:Without getting too off topic, how long had you had your initial implants Cookie?

Just under 3 years. I was still within my aftercare plan when I had a rupture, but my aftercare wouldn't pay for the further surgery involved to pay for the damage done to my breast, they were only obliged to pay for the free surgery to replace the ruptured implant, leaving me to find the rest of the money to pay for something that was caused through no fault of my own.

Were they pips or just an unfortunate rupture?x

I didn't have PIPs Altw... I was just one of the unlucky ones sadly. xx

What a shame, I did read some of your diary so knew about the problems with Transform. Well I guess it's made you all the wiser, and a hell of a lot of women here have learned through your struggles. I for one didnt take the idea of having an emergency boobie fund seriously until I'd read your diary, well I blinking well do now! X

Your story about that would be really helpful to read cookie I didn't actually think about that I just assumed that if an implant ruptures within that time they would sort everything to do with it out, I'm quite shocked to be honest that would be the most important bit to get sorted I will definately be looking for your story later xx