Brain Vs boobs

If there are any Red Dwarf fans on here, you'll understand when I say, I think I have a cruel brain like that of Rimmer.

I very often have anxiety dreams, usually involving toilets.. yes just lovely. Usually that the door is missing, or very low; people can see me; not managing to get it in the loo; accidentally on my clothes or on the floor etc. Sorry to share that, but they're the kind of anxiety dreams I normally have and before my op (just over a week ago), I was highly stressed, not just with the op & threat of delayed surgery, but other things going on too which were causing unnecessary & very much unwanted agro beforehand (of the ex-mother-in-law type). Anyway, as the surgical experience went well and me very much enjoying 2 weeks off work (bliss), the superglued on tape came off yesterday (also bliss), you'd think my brain would be kind to me. But no. For 2 nights in a row now, my cruel brain has been harassing me with anxiety dreams, not of the toilet kind, but of the boob kind.
The first one wasn't as bad as last night's I admit. It was that my nipples were in completely the wrong place & I was trying to mould them back into shape, like my boobs were big lumps of dough. Ok I thought yesterday, it's normal to have some boob dreams, probably everyone does. But last night, I woke up in a cold sweat. In dreams, all sorts of wild things can occur to which your dreaming brain relates to entirely differently than your real life perception. But on occasion, you have dreams where the dream events trigger very real emotional reactions and make them the most awful and memorable dreams.
Last night (in reality) I decided for the first time since the op, to sleep with just 2 pillows rather than still be propped up. Off to sleep I went. My boob nightmare began with me dreaming that I woke up to a bed wet with drippy leaking silicone and flat, empty boobs. The room & the house were exactly how they are in reality. I was distraught, panic stricken and almost hysterical that this disaster had occurred (as you would be if it had happened!). My thinking was very much as it would be in reality with the accompanied thoughts of 'why couldn't this just be a dream??!!!' and cursing myself for having lain flat in bed. 'The holes at the top of the implant would of course leak, that's why gthey told me to sleep propped up!!!; I need the emergency number etc' My emergency number is on a card in my handbag, so in the dream I rushed downstairs all the time, feeling the empty implants inside me. Then started a frantic search for the card, which of course was missing. The thoughts of 'my god, if they don't replace these I'll have to fork out another 4k & go through surgery again, oh my god all that money is just soaking into my bed, argh!!! And still 'why can't this be a bad dream?!'
Then I really woke up, sweating, feeling my boobs to make sure they were still there & not in fact soaking into my sheets & mattress. As with all nightmares, it takes a few minutes to fully come to the realisation that it was in fact all just a stupid dream, but the relief was immense. Not very often do I have the real sense of disaster in a dream as I had last night. But PLEASE brain - DON'T DO THAT TO ME AGAIN!!!
On a more serious note, the stress that has no doubt been caused to women who've had PIP implants must be immense and I know myself that I (especially as I get older) cause myself a great deal of stress (not intentionally). I'm not sure how I would cope in that position..

Post op boobie dreams... I had those. The one that weirded me out the most was the last one i had at about 2 weeks post op.

I had woken up on my side only to find that my implant had shifted and that i ended up with a mono boob. Funny/weird bit was that i could move the implants from side to side...

After 2.5 weeks post op the dreams stopped.

Hiya Hun!

I agree, I can't begin to imagine the worry and hurt those with PIP's had to endure, it must have been completely horrific, I'm hoping at least most of them have/are in the process of getting them replaced, or whatever they need in order to rid them of this horrible thing they must be going through.


Boobie dreams Omg they are so intense? You're definitely not alone, I had them many times before and after. Mainly that I was buying them in tesco(?!) and afterwards they would slide down my body inside of me, and end up in my waist lol.
I think it must be natural giving how often were thinking about our boobs, theyre on our mind 24/7. Just persevere soon honey and they'll pass! Enjoy your real life boobs :)

Haha! I'm expecting more weird & not so wonderful dreams to follow, but hopefully no real life nightmares... These early days are nerve wracking times! And I think I'll be anxious for many months yet, I suppose everyone is to varying degrees! x