What the hell am I doing?

by ejones380 19th July 2011, 7:57 am

It's my BA day tomorrow and I've woke up this morning in a complete panic, all I keep saying to my self is what the hell am I doing going through all this. I feel so selfish spending so much money and Im frightened to death that something might go wrong. Some of you ladies already know about my weird needle phobia and I've spent the last week getting myself in a terrible state over the canula,so much so that its been making me feel sick so I can't eat. Im starting to think
I'll get to the hospital and as soon as they take me to theatre ill bolt out the door. I do want this op, I have done since forever but at the moment Ive got so many mixed emotions, it's probably just me being Mard but I wish I could get all excited about it like other ladies seem to but I'm so frightened at the mo :-(

by rachyg1 19th July 2011, 8:06 am

Hiya. Please, please, please try not to worry. I had my BA last Tuesday. It really is a breeze. A week down the line I am totally back to normal, looking after my 4 and 1 year olds by myself, driving and doing everything as normal. It was so easy. I struggled with the selfish thing too but I can honestly say I have no regrets now.

Re the needle thing - as soon as I got to the hospital they put numbing cream on my hands (didn't even ask for it). I didn't feel the cannula at all. Make sure you ask for it as soon as you get there as it takes a while to take effect.

Rach
x

by lola_blsk 19th July 2011, 8:07 am

Completley normal to feel this way hun. I had this the night before my ba!!!

Its just fear of the unknown! Ill keep my figers crossed that ur day goes as quickly as mine as I just didn't have time to panic! :-)

Ur not selfish for doing this- ur actually the opposite- its just your doing something for YOU no one else...

You'll be absolutley fine chicky- ur in good hands and will wonder what all the panic was about after!

Good luck Xxx

by ejones380 19th July 2011, 8:29 am

Thanks ladies. It feels so weird not to be excited over something you've wanted for so long, I thought I'd be like a kid at Christmas. I'm in work from 1-11pm so I'm hoping that will take my mind of things. I'm using Jeremy Kyle to distract me at the mo, it's hilarious. Where do they get these people lol xx

by PinkyBecky 19th July 2011, 8:37 am

Im watching jeremy kyle.. Where do they find these people!!
But dont panic babe. Its a breeze you go to sleep and then wake up a bit disorientated, then look down and boom! The surgeon will have worked miricles and you will have BOOBS!!!
Also i burst into tears walking to surgery in my gown because of the needle, strted shaking and hyperventilating.. Was starting to have a panic attack!! So they decided to gas me and put the needle in after i was asleep- so ask the aneathetist if that is possible for you? Stress that needles make you panic and get stressed out etc :)

Boob jobs arent selfish.. They're just helping nature along ! ;) xxx

by ejones380 19th July 2011, 8:50 am

I think that once Im out cold I'll be ok, the idea of a bit of pain and discomfort I can deal with. If they could gas me and knock me out first that would be great lol. I can't imagine what it's going to be like to wake up and actually have boobs after all these years xx

by PinkyBecky 19th July 2011, 8:51 am

It's such a good feeling.. Am still on a high and everytime i wake up i have a quick grope just to make sure they havent ran off! Hehe x

by ejones380 19th July 2011, 9:01 am

PinkyBecky wrote:It's such a good feeling.. Am still on a high and everytime i wake up i have a quick grope just to make sure they havent ran off! Hehe x

Haha that made me chuckle, I think I'll be exactly the same xx

by lola_blsk 19th July 2011, 9:04 am

Ther feeling when u come round is AMAZING- after I abused the nurse, ripped off the oxygen mask and tried to sit up (nightmare patient) I finally realised and looked down and had a feel then I just giggled like a little kid till I went home hehehehe!

My best friend was sedated before her op! So just ask when u get there hun. Xxx

by ejones380 19th July 2011, 9:13 am

Lol my friends a nurse and she says that it's so funny watching people come round from GA. My boyfriend had a small op and when he came round he looked at the nurse and said "I enjoyed our date, sorry I didn't call you" haha what a loon. I still wind him up about it now. God knows what I'll be like. I'm definatly going to ask for some kind if sedation. I did try to discuss it with my ps dr traynor but he wasn't very forth coming and just said we'll see on the day xx

by lola_blsk 19th July 2011, 9:25 am

I honestly would love to be the recovery nurse!

Its so hilarious the things we do and say....

I told the nurse she's such a selfish bitch for not getting me a glass of water (I wasn't even awake- eek! I ended up going to apologise to her when I was fully awake! Xxx

by ejones380 19th July 2011, 10:13 am

I was horrible to one of the midwives when I was in labour with my daughter, just because I was off my head on all the drugs. I kept laughing at her and calling her cindy (no idea why i called her cindy) I demanded a bath and when she tried to take my tens machine off me so I could get in it I went mental and told her she could f-off! I remember her shouting at me in the end saying "if you get in that bath with that bloody machine you'll electrocute yourself you silly girl!!" Then I started crying. I talk in my sleep at the best of times and my boyfriend loves repeating the stupid stuff I've said. Apparently the other night I was shouting "go on soldier do it!!" and then I started laughing, how embarrassing eh lol xx

by rachyg1 19th July 2011, 10:33 am

Ha ha - a couple of nights ago I had a dream that some old bloke (ewww) from my former workplace (pre-kids)was kissing me(??!!!). I said out loud - "let's go somewhere else, my husband is over there" - ha ha!

by sarahdawn31 19th July 2011, 10:45 am

Ahhh Hun, you are not alone... So many of us feel the same way... I was a mess the week of my op!

Trust me, you will be fine and you will be so happy with your new boobies!

X

by uplift 19th July 2011, 11:06 am

TODAY IS MY SURGERY DAY AND I AM ANXIOUS AS HELL I ACTUALLY CANNOT WAIT FOR THEM TO KNOCK ME OUT SO I CAN STOP WORRYING.
I KEEP THINKING SOMETHING IS GONNA GO WRONG AND I WONT BE ABLE TO AFFORD TO FIX IT. I HAVE THOUGHTS OF ME NOT WAKING UP FROM THE GA..FUNNY THING IS I HAVE HAD GA LOADS OF TIMES FOR DIFFERENT THINGS NEVER BOTHERED ME AT ALL AND HERE I AM MAKING A CHANGE TO MY LIFE THAT I DESERVE AND WANT AND IM THINKING ALL SORTS....MY ADVICE TO YOU ALL AND MY SELF IS ...FEEL THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY.... group hug

by jen86 19th July 2011, 12:20 pm

ejones380 wrote:I was horrible to one of the midwives when I was in labour with my daughter, just because I was off my head on all the drugs. I kept laughing at her and calling her cindy (no idea why i called her cindy) I demanded a bath and when she tried to take my tens machine off me so I could get in it I went mental and told her she could f-off! I remember her shouting at me in the end saying "if you get in that bath with that bloody machine you'll electrocute yourself you silly girl!!" Then I started crying. I talk in my sleep at the best of times and my boyfriend loves repeating the stupid stuff I've said. Apparently the other night I was shouting "go on soldier do it!!" and then I started laughing, how embarrassing eh lol xx

THIS MADE ME LAUGH SOOO MUCH!!! about the eletrocuting thing lmao!!! xxxx

by jen86 19th July 2011, 12:22 pm

youll be fine, i know everyone says it, but thats cos its true!!! the needle i was honestly **naughty word** myself over!! prob even more then you!!!! but i can honestly say it was a breeze, and u can do it!!! U CAN BE BRAVE AND HAVE YOUR BA THAT YOU DESERVE!!! go on girl!!! get it done!! you will be so impressed with yourself after and be thinking, i cant believe i did it! go me!!
Lol XXXX

by ejones380 19th July 2011, 12:45 pm

Aw thanks so much to all of you for the words of advice and support. I do want this BA and I do deserve it, I just need to be brave and do it like you say. Hopefully it will be all over before I know it xx

by ejones380 19th July 2011, 12:50 pm

Had my nails taken off just before work, this is the first time in about four years without them and it feels so strange. I can actually pick things up haha xx

by anastasia 19th July 2011, 8:38 pm

dont worry! im sure youre in great hands ans everything will be alright! :)

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